Christianne

I’m struggling so much, sometimes I just want to break down and cry it out. Okay, I did but that never helped. It will definitely won’t keep my problems away. It’s hard to juggle around with all these things right now, and really need to find that balance to keep myself in control.

Putting God in the center of my life, in everything I do, is the reason why I’m able to stand where I am right now. But the weight of all this crap are so heavy that at THIS instance, I just want to drop it all down and leave it. I know deep down that God wouldn’t let me go through this just because He wants me to suffer.. I know it’s another test! To see if I still put Him first. Well, He definitely put all this weight knowing I’m still able to keep walking and moving with all the weight on my shoulders.

Okay, all I wanted to say is… I am TIRED. EXHAUSTED. I don’t know if I keep up the pace any longer. But I’m doing what I can. I don’t know what’s God’s plan for me, but I’m going to just trust in Him and whatever turns out for me, it must be what He wants for me, and I will have to learn to accept it, good or bad, either way, I’m sure it’s for my own good. I really do believe that. I really thank God for the people He placed in my life right now…You know who you are, thank you, from the bottom of my heart. Telling me that you have faith in me is enough to keep me going.

So the source of my strength? Definitely God.

just2moreweeks. sustain me Lord. please don’t let me cry over this matter again. keeping my head up.